Tuesday, January 10, 2012


I imagine that it is not the thought that perpetuates the ripples but the thought that tunes our perception. Like buying a car only to discover that there are so many of them on the highway...

The other day I was thinking about heart and head and how they tend to each seek favor in our soul. It was a concept that had some weight. As I thought more of my circumstances I saw some ripples of this along my life. Where is the center of this ripple? Did the thought cause the ripple or was the thought because of the ripple?

I have two sons. One seems to be pure head and the other seems to be pure heart. One quiet and ordered the other loud and colorful. Not so simple of course but the ripple took me to that thought and took me to them too. The son who is head was struggling with heart. Both as in how brothers fight but also in the sense of life. If you measure life purely by logic you miss the beauty and you miss the meaning and at some point in your calculations to cannot find the answers.

I first visited his disturbance and because I too struggle I could understand his situation. I could give advice and I chose to. Bring some more heart into your life son. There are times that logic will not bring you the answers. We talked about all the forms of intelligence and thoughts and we came back to one that he held lowest but needed to trust more.

There is a clear ringing of the heart. It shouts and shows you many answers in your life. I tried to bring him there and as ripples would do I brought myself there as well. I hope he saw the beauty that we reached that day.

Later I found my other son awash in the sea of his heart. It held swells that could throw him to the stars. He was having troubles and needed a anchor. I make a poor one but ripples again brought me here. I could reach him because I have been there recently. We talked about things and I started making statements that made no sense and he called me on them. Lovenly I looked into eyes and smiled and said now you are using your head. With laughter he understood. Sometimes we need to let our brains lead us and not to be led by our hearts. There was solid ground there. A place that ripples brought us both. I hope he felt the ground as much as I did.

These dampening waves highlighted other parts of my life. What ripples through yours?

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Led by my heart

I am not sure if I am one of those people who wears his heart on his sleeve but I am certainly somebody who is led by his heart. Sometimes it is comforting. It has a sense of being genuine. When our heart believes, when our heart cares, when our heart suggests doesn't that mean we are being truthful? Doesn't that mean that we care about others? Isn't this a good characteristic?

When our head believes, when our head suggests, when we do something that is logical we can find out later that we used this logic to rationalize or decision. We lie to ourselves all the time to reduce any pain and to justify fulfilling our wants.

Logic dictates that our heart does the same thing although my heart adamantly denies it.

A lot of the things that my heart tells me my head argues with. It makes a lively day at times. Sometimes it can be stressful.

My head will get into a thought such as the one this blog originally had been intended to be about: the diverse world of the internet and my passion for stumpleupon and general wandering, about along my journey finding people that I admire but my difficulty in connecting with them... and my heart will twist it.

It makes it challenging to complete thoughts at time. They shift and shoot like a crackling fire and I get lost in the colors. Pretty but...

So when you see two brothers that have different personalities; one calm and quiet and the other full of noise and emotion. When you see that at times they just cannot exist without arguing intensely... Well that's how it is to be in my head. Sometimes you just want them both to shut up and let you get some work done.